Fall = school

I wish I could go back to school right now. The new semester just started and I'm longing to go on campus, get some books, go to the library, write a paper, do some studying, everything that comes with going to school. I did it for about a semester and a half and quit. I honestly regret that. And I don't regret many things in my life. But that's definitely one of them. Obviously, if I could go back and change it, I wouldn't because I wouldn't be where I am today and I am happy where I am. I just wish I could have a little something more, something like school. I would just go part time. Take some art and theater classes. Maybe an english or history class. Or even a sociology and phsycology class. But I'm not going to be able to go back for a while and that makes me sad. Paying off loans that you didn't even use is a horrible thing. It makes me feel worthless. Not totally, but definitely a little. Especially when I not only let my parents down, but I ended up letting myself down also. I didn't realize I had let myself down until just recently. Not until I realized I wanted to go back. But it will be at least a year. First, I have to pay off my loans and some other bills. Then I have to have the money to pay to go back to school. And it's not cheap. I really don't want to take out anymore loans so I would just pay for each class and the books out of my pocket. So maybe another two or three years. And by that time, who knows where I'll be. Will I still want to go to school by then?