Debate.

The reason that I didn't play college softball is because I didn't love it enough to make it my life for four years. I love the game. It's amazing. It's so fun. But I guess I just didn't feel like I had the motivation to play it through college. Don't get me wrong, I was good enough during my junior year. As soon as I decided that I was not going to continue after high school, I kind of slacked off and my senior year wasn't as good. Then tonight I went and hit and worked out a bit. And I realize how much I've missed it. But I'm still not sure if I want to commit. Yes, it's only three nights a week and I believe they only play on weekends. But still. What if halfway through I decide I don't want to do it anymore? What then? I sure as hell wouldn't quit on the team but I would have no motivation and I would slack off. I just don't want that to happen. And especially right now, with my car, job, and money situation, I'm not sure if it's the right time to start something new.