I just dropped my man off at the airport. He is going with a friend to Iowa and won't be back until Tuesday. I miss him already and it hasn't even been an hour! I'll miss his voice, his smile, his eyes. I'll miss holding his hand and kissing him goodbye when I go to work. I'll miss sitting out on our balcony smoking a late night cigarette and then crawling into bed with him. I'll miss our late night conversations and our tickle fights. I'll miss cuddling up to him and his body heat surrounding me. I'll miss waking up to him. I'll miss coming home from work and seeing him smile as I walk in the door.
Of course, I'll be able to text him and talk to him on the phone. But of course, it's not the same. A week may not seem like a long time. But without him, it will be. He will be out in Iowa, a new place that he's never been to, and the week will fly by for him. But I'll be here, in our apartment, by myself and it will be one of the longest weeks ever. I am thankful that it's only a week. I don't know how people with husbands/boyfriends in the military. Their man is gone for months, even years, at a time. Ugh. No thanks.
Now, I'm not at all regretting that he is going. He was so excited. He hasn't been out of the state for quite a while. He's never been to Iowa. He loves flying. Plus, he is going with one of his best friends. He is going to have an amazing time. And I trust him completely. But it still sucks.
This week is going to make me realize just how much I love him. I can already tell. I've never been the type of girl that has to have a man. I love the single life. I could be single forever, if I never found a guy worth sticking with. But I have found that guy. I've found the guy who makes it all worthwhile. And I see no reason to be single when I can have him. I've joked with him that while he is gone, I'll be all depressed and won't know what to do with myself. However, I won't actually be depressed and I will find things to do without him. But I'll still miss him and wish he was with me. And it will be so nice to have him back in a week.