It's never simple.

I guess it doesn't get easier with time. And I guess it doesn't happen just because I say it will. And I guess it won't happen, no matter how much I want it to. No matter how much I need it to. And I guess I can't just simply move on whenever I want to. Because it's not simple at all. It's so complicated. And I don't understand why. It should be so easy to forget and keep going with my life. But it's not.

Nothing is simple anymore. When I was little, that's when it was simple. Recess was my favorite subject in school and my best friend was my best friend because we sat next to each other in class. It was ok to kiss more than one guy in a day because with kiss tag, you had to. But I grew up. And people changed. And I changed. And it's never going to be simple again. And if it is simple, that means something is wrong. Because life isn't supposed to be simple. If it was simple, it would be too easy and the choices we make wouldn't mean anything. But since it's hard, we suffer sometimes. And that's supposed to make us stronger. So I guess when I get through this, I'll be tougher than nails.