Why keep your life on hold?

I'm letting go. For real this time. I think I finally realized that there is absolutely no chance of him forgiving me. All the things he said to me, every word that cut me, they finally pushed through and something in me just clicked. Realizing that someone will never feel the things for you that you do for them, that's what happened. Realizing that there is no chance of him ever wanting you again, that's what happened. And it's ok.

It's ok because it's not the end of the world. It's ok because I'm not actually giving up, I'm just moving on. It's ok because there are so many other things out there. It's ok because I'm young and I'll heal. It's ok because I'm accepting it. It's ok because now I'm going to feel better. It's ok because I say it's ok.

Moving on means that I won't think about him constantly. Moving on means that I can actually feel something for someone else and not wish it was him. Moving on means that I can be happy again. And not just happy sometimes. Happy all the time because I know that I've moved on. And I guess that I don't have to be happy all the time. But not unhappy all the time either. It's just going to be better now. And I'm excited for that.

"You'll never stop loving someone. It's more a matter of learning to deal with the pain of not having them anymore."