I’ve begun to realize that there’s always going to be a few people out there who want to bring me down. They want to make me look like a horrible person so that no one will like me. I’ve realized who these people are and I’m distancing myself from them. Forever. They’ve spread rumors about me and let me down numerous times. I’m not entirely sure why I’ve kept them in my life. But no more. They are no good for me and do nothing but make me unhappy.
I’ve begun to realize that I won’t always be able to make everyone happy. I can make people smile, but I can also make people frown, and cry. More often than not, I will make people sad. I will mess up and make someone unhappy. But since I now understand this, I can deal with it. I now understand that no one, anywhere, will make everyone happy all the time. And if that person does exist, I would love to meet him/her and ask, how? I think it’s impossible to make everyone happy.
I’ve begun to realize that I will make mistakes and let people down. I’m only human! I’m nowhere near perfect, but I also don’t try to be because I know it’s impossible. And since I’m not perfect, I will mess up. I’ll do things wrong at least once. And when I do something wrong, there’s the possibility that I’ll let someone down. And when I let someone down, that’s just how it is. I’ll apologize, but that’s all I can do about it. I can’t go back in time and undo my mistake. So I’ll apologize and hope that the person I let down can forgive me.
I’ve begun to realize who my true friends are. I had this realization once in high school. Now that I’ve moved and have met new people, I’m realizing it again. My true friends are the ones who accept me as I am. They realize that I’m not perfect. They know that I’ll mess up and probably let them down. But they also realize that I learn from my mistakes and that it won’t happen again. They understand that I don’t hurt them on purpose and that I’ll do anything to fix what I do. My true friends are the ones who are there for me no matter what. They will do anything for me. They also know who they are.
I’m sick of all the drama. Working where I work, everyone knows everything about each other, which just causes problems. When you party with the people you work with, it doesn’t always work out so well. It would be totally fine if certain people (yes, namely the females) didn’t cause drama. When you make a mistake, you need to tell the truth about it. Otherwise, it will certainly come back and bite you in the ass. If you aren’t willing to tell the truth about something, then make sure it doesn’t happen in the first place. When you lie about something that happened, it will always come out. And you have no one to blame but yourself. That’s why I stopped lying a long time ago.
