Happy New Year

It's interesting how you find things out about people. How you realize that the one who cares is the one you don't want to care and the one who doesn't care is the one you want to care. It gets all turned around and upside down and everything is different and not how it should be. And you say two little words, "I'm done," and everything falls to shit. Finding out how people are and if they care is sometimes the hardest thing and then suddenly, it just happens. Suddenly, you realize who you can count on to always answer their phone and to always be there, no matter how much shit you put them through. Suddenly, you realize that maybe the last few weeks didn't really mean anything to that other person and if it did, it doesn't now. Why? Because neither of us try hard enough. Neither of us want to put forth the effort it takes to make it work. We expect it to just happen. But it's not that easy. It can't be that easy. If things were easy, they wouldn't be worth it. When you have to fight for something, fight to make it work, then it's worth it. Then it's worthwhile. It's worth your time. And maybe your life.