Resolutions, hearts, and lives.

I'm glad it's a new year. It's exciting knowing that you can kind of start over and use the new year as an excuse. And if you feel the need, you can make a resolution. But the thing about resolutions is that you rarely keep them. Maybe you keep it for a few days or even months. But it's rare to keep a resolution for a whole year. That's why I don't even make one. I know that whatever it is, something will get in it's way and I'll falter. Plus, I can never think of a good enough resolution. The whole diet thing is bogus. Same with no drinking and no smoking. So then what? Just live your life and if you find the need to change something, change it. Don't worry about a resolution.

I was finally able to talk about him without crying. I told the whole thing to my girl and she agreed that when you love someone so much, it never goes away. And it's so true. He's the one I think back on when I'm in a bad place and upset. Even my ex who I dated for over ten months [[longest relationship. apparently I'm no monogamist]] is never on my mind. And I truly loved him for a while. But it wasn't enough with him. I have no left-over feelings for him. But this other guy has my heart, probably forever. That doesn't mean that someone else can't also have it. I've come to realize that you have be in love with more than one person. You can give your whole heart to more than one person. But you can only give your life to one. And that person who has your heart AND your life is the one who will have you, not the person who just has your heart.