Konfusion with a "k."

Ugh I hate posting two posts in one day but I have a lot on my mind and if I don't put it all somewhere, it will crowd my mind and I'll just think about it way too much.

I'm so confused. When we yell at each other, it doesn't accomplish much except then we know how each other feels. Then, for a couple of days after our yelling, everything seems ok because we realize how much we care. Or so I thought. Because then today rolls around and nothing. No call. No text. And I'm probably just being dumb and making something out of nothing. At least I hope so. But then again, what if something is going on? I don't like it. It messes with me and makes my emotions go all haywire. I just want to be able to rely on him one hundred percent. I don't want to doubt him and his feelings. I want him to show me and tell me how he feels. I want to hang out with him and just him. And then I want to hang out with him and his friends and my friends. I want him to be able to make me happy, not sad or irritated. I want to be able to trust him. I want him to stop confusing me.