Letter I might never send

This is one of those letters that you write, intending to send, but once you hesitate, you never send. So instead of putting off sending it, I'm just going to post it here and then maybe I'll gather the courage to send it.

Dear ______,
I'm not very good at expressing how I feel out loud. So sometimes I have to write it all down. Even when my words don't make sense to anyone else, it's the only way for me to get it all out.
There are so many things I want to tell you, but I just don't know how. And of course I'm a bit nervous because I have no idea how you'll react. But I think I should tell you so that you know how I feel. So where do I start?
I guess I'll start with when we first met. I've told you before that I thought you were an ass at first and how you're not really my type. But as I got to know you, I realized that you're on of the sweetest people I've ever met. I also realized that my type is you. I don't know if that makes sense. You know how as you get to know someone, they grow on you? That's what you've done. Every time we hung out, I started to like you more.
I'm attracted to you in every wary possible. Obviously physically. I could never be with someone I wasn't physically attracted to. I guess I'm just shallow like that. But it's more than physical. I'm so addicted to how you make me feel. The way you look at me, the way you make me smile, the way I feel when you hold me . . . it's just everything you do. I can't get enough of you. I love being with you and no matter what we're doing, I'm just happy because it's with you. I don't agree when people say we spend too much time together. I just don't think that's possible. Who are they to say how much time we should spend together? I look forward to spending even more time with you.
Ok, so my next thought. I've been in love before. But it's always taken me a while to realize it. And there was always something wrong in the relationship that made it difficult to stay together. However, it's been completely different with you. I fell for you incredibly fast. And it scared me at first. But I'm not afraid anymore because I realize that it must mean something is different which must be a good sign. And I've stopped waiting for something to go wrong because being with you just feels right, like nothing can go wrong. It feels like we fit together and that's one of the best feelings ever. You still give me butterflies. And I bet you always will.
I've always been a flirt. It's always been hard for me to keep all of my attention on just one guy. Until you came along. No matter who comes along, it's like they don't actually exist. You're the only one who has any of my attention and the only one I think about. You're the only one I picture myself doing things with.
I remember you telling me that your first love is cars and how your ex got mad about that. I just want you to know, I don't mind. I just hope that I'm second. Also, I always want to be with you but I realize that we both have our own things. And I want us to be able to do them.
And finally, I just want you to know that I want us to be able to talk about anything and everything. I want us to . . . do everything. I can't imaging wanting to be with anyone else but you. Just don't ever forget the things that I'm telling you because these feelings aren't going away. I love you.
-Jessica

I'm starting to learn that I have to forgive people easier than I do right now. Just because she doesn't "approve" of some of the things I do and so she kind of backstabs me, I have to realize that that's how she's been raised and she's just looking out for her best interests. Yet how can I? She's totally leaving me out in the cold.