I can breath again.

Just for the record, the last two weekends have been two of the most fun weekends since I moved here. For the fourth of July, we went up to Cascade to go camping and it was an amazing time. Then I just got home from going up past Lucky Peak to go camping and had an even more amazing time.

So why is it that I am always made out to be the bad guy? It's like in his eyes, I can't do anything right. He told me that I have no idea how relationships work. And of course he's always right, right? None of this was actually my fault. I truly believe that I have done nothing wrong. And I have never had a problem with taking the blame if something is my fault.

For my age, I am extremely mature. Of course, I have my moments when I act my age. But for the most part, I am very grown up. As an only child, and a very un-spoiled only child, I grew up quickly and learned how to take care of myself. However, he is very immature. And he is even a few years old than I am. And I know that males mature slower or whatever. But I know guys his age and younger that are fifty times more mature than he is. He just has not had to grow up yet. He's always been able to rely completely on his parents, and I blame his parents a lot for him not growing up.

When you try to live with an immature person who only has eyes for alcohol, there is bound to be problems. I love to party and drink, don't get me wrong. But I realized a long time ago that there's more to life than getting drunk. I've also realized that I can't let anyone treat me like shit. I can't allow him to say derogatory things to me. I can't allow him to put me down.

I've come to realize that I am a strong person. I am unique and special. And I don't mean eat-the-paste special. I am an important person and I deserve to be treated with respect from everyone. I don't deserve to have someone be an asshole to me one day, and be nice to me the next. That's not what I signed up for.

I'm just glad I realized all of this before it went on for a really long time. And in some eyes, it still went on for too long. But it's done with. It's over and I feel a sense of relief. Honestly, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can breath again.