Deliver me into my fate

I've had a few shockers lately. A few disappointments. A few surprises.
I don't think it will work out. I can't trust him. I can't see any future with him. Not anymore. I guess it's more like I know it won't work out. There were some really good times. Some times I will never forget. I learned things that I will never forget. I met people I will never forget. I don't regret it. I have never really regretted anything. Because everything is for a reason, right? This is life and this is how life is. Unpredictable. We do what we can but not everyone can stay in our lives like we want them to. No matter how hard we try, things will always change. For the better or for the worse, that's just how it is.
How do you react when you find out that someone has feelings for you, but you don't have any back? At least, nothing more than a really good friendship. What do you say to that? Especially when it's that person telling you. Saying, I have fallen for you. How could I have been so . . . blind? Apparently it was obvious. Or so I've heard. But not to me. Maybe I was just happy that I had good friends. And just didn't want to see the obvious? I really don't know. So now what? Where does the friendship go? Is it still there? Or is everything awkward? But we can't let it be awkward. Truth is, we work together as well. I'm sorry, but neither of us can afford to quit because of something as trivial as this. Yes, trivial. Maybe it doesn't seem trivial to him, but to me, it's just another bump in the road. That may seem mean, like I just don't give a fuck. But honestly, I don't like him as anything more than a friend and I can't do anything about that. So it's a bump.
Sometimes I get worried that this life isn't enough for me. That I need to go somewhere else. Do something else. I'm kind of restless lately.