So many questions

Maybe I am happy with my life. Maybe I am unhappy with it. Which is it? Can it be both? Maybe I am happy with some parts of my life and unhappy with other parts. I'm pretty sure that's possible. Ok so if that is the conclusion I come to, then what parts am I happy with? What parts am I unhappy with?
Did I break down the other night because of my life or because I put myself in danger? Because when you are not in danger anymore, and you realize how bad it could have been, you freak out. I think that was part of it. But if that was only part of it, what was the other part? My life? So many questions and very few answers.