And I'll see that you're right for me.

I know how I feel about him, so why can't I just be with him? I don't have any interest in anyone else and I don't see myself meeting anyone that I would want to be with besides him right now. So why can't I just be in a relationship with him? I've been thinking about it and I think it's because I'm scared. Last time I decided to commit to one guy, he turned around and blew me off, after months of saying how much he wanted to be with me. And the second I agreed to it, he changed his mind. So I guess I'm scared of that happening again because I don't think I could take it. Then he tells me that he's not like any other guy, but what the hell does that mean? I can't even count how many times I've heard a guy say that. And of course, he couldn't explain it.

One of my roommates is getting married in May. She was talking to her sister the other day about sex and it just made me laugh. She's grown up believing in sex after marriage and she was saying something about how it's getting harder for them to resist since it's getting so close to their wedding. It really made me laugh. And so tonight, they are here and we're all just talking and he has this button-up shirt. She decided to show me how it's really easy to get undone and I just laughed and said, "Well that'll come in handy here pretty soon." And then we just went off on some dirty jokes. They made my night.